Nobody ever reads my shit, which is basically why i’m going to spill my heart out on here. I just need to vent, to release all the tension I feel inside my body. I’m aching inside, my stomach is uneasy, and my heart is off a few beats. I feel like I’m starting to realize I have an unrealistic idea of love, I feel as if one day someone is going to come and completely sweep me off my feet. But I’m starting to realize, prince charming doesn’t exist. Love isn’t based on that feeling you have in the pit of your stomach, love is a variety of things. Love is someone who refuses to leave your side, love is when times get tough, you want that person fighting by your side. Love is someone accepting you for everything you truly are, you shouldn’t have to change a thing. Love is someone being apart of your life, not consuming it. Love is not being able to see your life without that person, because they certainly can’t see it without you. Love is not just that feeling, I’ve learned that is lust. Lust gets you nothing more then a lot of broken promises and ultimately a broken heart. I’ve experienced it. It’s almost drug like. In the beginning, it’s new and exciting. It makes you happy, it keeps you happy. You become addicted. Once you begin to crash, and this drug doesn’t keep you satisfied. You begin to get the high off of the withdrawal. You leave it alone for a while, and that first time you do it, after thinking you had given it up, is the most bitter sweet feeling. But eventually, you realize its not the drug that making you happy. It’s the feeling you get, that does not necessarily mean the drug is good for you. No drug is good for you. It only leads to destruction. You consumed my life for 8 months now. You made me lose a part of myself that I thought I had just gotten back. You’ve made it to where I don’t enjoy my life without you, at least I thought I didn’t. I’m finally letting go of you, like I said I would a million times. This time, it’s real, cause I feel you slipping out of my memory. I feel you slipping away all together. I wish you nothing but happiness, but my happiness comes first. The only way I will be happy again, is if you’re gone.
I just don’t have the proper tools
I get hammered, forget that you exist
There’s no way I’m forgetting this Frightened Rabbit - My Backwards Walk (via priest-face)
and i don’t have the strength to resist to control you.
we’re nothing more then friends, and i know that. But every time i’m with you i fall a little deeper, and you say you do too. why tell me that at all if you’re just going to throw it in my face that we’re “just friends” ? if thats what you want, then so be it. I can’t stop you from being with or having sex with whoever you want. but god damn, i will not be made out to look stupid. i’m not gonna just sit and be here whenever you feel like showing me the parts of you i know that are there. i’ve been here for the last few months trying to show you not all girls are gonna be the same to you. i’ve been here, i’ve been your best friend for a god damn reason. to show you your best friend can be your best lover. i lose myself when it comes to you, and i hate it so much. but it’s such an addicting feeling to just completely and utterly lose myself in you. but after tonight, i see the parts of you that keep pulling away from me, and i can’t sit here and let you make an ass of me. so, so long to feeling anything more for you then just being my pal.
busbeezy said: why are u so beautiful?
why are you so sweet? :)
drewskiiiii said: love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
i love youu
unspokenconspiracy said: HAPPPY BIRFFDAYY BROOOKIEEE :)<3 love you beautifullll
awhhh thanks baby! :) i love you too<3
is my birthdayyyyy!:)
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- 2: Zodiac sign
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- 4: 3 things I love
- 5: 4 turns on
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- 7: My best friend
- 8: Sexual orientation
- 9: My best first date
- 10: How tall am I
- 11: What do I miss
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- 25: Ever done a prank call?
- 26: What colour of underwear I'm wearing now?
- 27: Meaning behind my URL
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- 31: How I feel right now
- 32: Someone I love
- 33: My current relationship status
- 34: My relationship with my parents
- 35: Favourite holiday
- 36: Tattoos and piercing i have
- 37: Tattoos and piercing i want
- 38: The reason I joined Tumblr
- 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
- 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
- 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
- 42: When did I last hold hands?
- 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
- 44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?
- 45: Where am I right now?
- 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
- 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
- 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
- 49: Am I excited for anything?
- 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
- 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
- 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
- 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
- 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
- 55: What is something I disliked about today?
- 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
- 57: What do I think about most?
- 58: What’s my strangest talent?
- 59: Do I have any strange phobias?
- 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
- 61: What was the last lie I told?
- 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
- 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
- 64: Do I believe in magic?
- 65: Do I believe in luck?
- 66: What's the weather like right now?
- 67: What was the last book I've read?
- 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
- 69: Do I have any nicknames?
- 70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
- 71: Do I spend money or save it?
- 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?
- 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?
- 74: Favourite animal?
- 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
- 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
- 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
- 78: How can you win my heart?
- 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
- 80: What is my favorite word?
- 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
- 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
- 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
- 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
- 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
- 86: What is my current desktop picture?
- 87: Had sex?
- 88: Bought condoms?
- 89: Gotten pregnant?
- 90: Failed a class?
- 91: Kissed a boy?
- 92: Kissed a girl?
- 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
- 94: Had job?
- 95: Left the house without my wallet?
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- 99: Smoked weed?
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- 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
- 109: Been outside my home country?
- 110: Gotten my heart broken?
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- 112: Broken a bone?
- 113: Cut myself?
- 114: Been to prom?
- 115: Been in airplane?
- 116: Fly by helicopter?
- 117: What concerts have I been to?
- 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
- 119: Learned another language?
- 120: Wore make up?
- 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
- 122: Had oral sex?
- 123: Dyed my hair?
- 124: Voted in a presidential election?
- 125: Rode in an ambulance?
- 126: Had a surgery?
- 127: Met someone famous?
- 128: Stalked someone on a social network?
- 129: Peed outside?
- 130: Been fishing?
- 131: Helped with charity?
- 132: Been rejected by a crush?
- 133: Broken a mirror?
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- 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
- 136: Was I named after anyone?
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- 138: What was my favourite toy as a child?
- 139: Favourite Tv Show?
- 140: Where do I want to live when older?
- 141: Play any musical instrument?
- 142: One of my scars, how did I get it?
- 143: Favourite pizza toping?
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- 145: Am I afraid of heights?
- 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
- 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
- 148: What I'm really bad at
- 149: What my greatest achievments are
- 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
- 151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery
- 152: What do I like about myself
- 153: My closest Tumblr friend
- 154: Something I fantasise about
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drewskiiiii said: boo im sorry we didnt get to talk all hat much but i was layingshit doen with roxayne and her brother answered and it was all just the wrong time to talk booboo:(
its okay don’t worry about it. have fun in NY with roxy. see you back at school xo
is not a bad thing…. EAT AWAY. better then a razor blade or some other creepy shit.
put on some extra love chub and enjoy ittttttttttttttttttt xox
Anonymous said: Awesome zebra boobs!
lmao. well thanx :x